Moo Moo, it’s your birthday

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Birthday Girl!

One year ago today, at 4:02am, after 21 hours of ‘active waiting’, Moo arrived into her very welcoming family. It has been a year, and it seems we haven’t screwed it up so far, which is well worth celebrating!
In a blog I often read, the writer writes letters to her daughter, so I thought on this special day, I would do the same.

‘Dear Moo,

You are a whole year old today. You have had your first birthday party, eaten your first cake, your first BBQ, and unwrapped your first birthday presents. You have had so many firsts this year, and your Daddy and I have had many with you.

We have changed our first nappies, had our first midnight wake up calls. All our first with you have made us feel like baby experts. But you are so smart, and learning so quickly, that you are constantly supplying us with new firsts.

I remember holding you in a quiet moment alone in our hospital room. Your skin was so perfect it seemed to glisten, like someone had dusted your sweet pink cheeks with pearl dust. You had so much incredibly soft dark hair, and your eyes were huge and deep blue. Your lips were a perfect pink rosebud. You were so tiny and delicate and perfect. I was simultaneously scared to hold you as I thought I’d break you, and so in love with you that I never wanted to put you down.

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You, coming home from the hospital

You have changed since then. You are tough and strong and so very clever. You still have lots of hair, but it has morphed into silken gold curls. Your cheeks are still pink and sweet and your skin still soft, but your knees and hands are scuffed and scratched in a testament to your adventuresome nature. You still have your beautiful big eyes, your cherub lips, and I am still stopped by strangers who think you are beautiful. When you were born I loved you more than I’ve ever loved anyone. Every day, I love you more than the day before. You are amazing to me.

You have aged me 5 years with every stumble, every tumble, every fall. But every time you giggle, smile, cuddle me, kiss me, say my name, or even better ‘I wub mah mahmah’ you give me at least another 5 back.

We have given you lots of presents today, but there are a few more things I want to give you, not just for your first birthday, but for life. I feel if I give you these things, you will make it okay.

Empathy – I wish for you to feel for others. I hope you always put yourselves in another’s shoes before you make decisions that will effect others, or pass judgements on them. When someone is feeling badly, even if you don’t know them well, I want you to feel what they feel, deeply.

Resilience – When things are hard, I want you to keep pushing on. I want you to always keep going, and to leave the bad things behind you. There is a saying ‘Everything will be alright in the end. If it isn’t alright, it isn’t the end’. I hope that I can give you the strength to always keep on trucking.

A sense of Humour – Life isn’t worth living if you can’t laugh at it. I want to teach you to laugh often, laugh loudly, and laugh freely. Nothing is worth taking too seriously.

I love you Moo. You are, quite simply, the best. Thank you for the best year of my life so far.

Love,

Mummy.’

I’m An, the wife of a wonderful, but extremely nerdy gamer, a mother to two, a scientist, an amateur pastry chef, a daughter, a sister and a friend.

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